I’m beginning to struggle with this project a bit. Yesterday, I couldn’t think what to write. It was one of the first times so far that I was stumped. Today, I nearly forgot! And that’s the first time that’s happened either.
In some ways, I’ve exhausted most of the daily thoughts that are going through my head. It’s made me wonder how much of this is actually things that I learnt each day, and how many was me thinking of an interesting thing that I already knew.
Right this second, I can’t think of anything useful that I know now that I didn’t know 10 hours ago (and that’s what this is about really).
I’m a bit preoccupied with money at the moment. I’m in the process of trying to buy a flat at the moment, which is very expensive. I’ve wanted to be on the so-called “property ladder” for a while now. Mainly, I think, for psychological reasons: I hate the idea of not working towards anything. And renting feels that way to me.
For this reason, I find it very difficult to do jobs that are “drudge”. By that, I mean, where you, as the employee, are the system, churning something out. I suspect that should push me towards a more project-based career.
I haven’t been doing much writing lately either. I’m struggling with that too. I have a few ideas down, but I can’t get the motivation to sit down and get on with it. I’m wondering if this motivation is partly created by what I’m reading. When I’m reading authors that I love, you can’t stop me writing.
I think the first thing to do is make time and routine for it – and, I suspect, part of that is to force myself to write something each day. I once read that Terry Pratchett writes 400 words a day:
For more than three years I wrote more than 400 words every day. I mean, every calendar day. If, in those pre-portable days, I couldn’t get to a keyboard, I wrote hard the previous night and caught up the following day
400 words isn’t many. But I think that’s part of it. This is a marathon, not a sprint. I think that hideous cliche of a phrase is one of the hardest things to live. Humans aren’t built for marathons, and I think whatever we can do to help us keep at them is good.